Today I bought what I intend to be my final pack of cigarettes.
To quickly get the statistics out there for you - 6 cigarettes today. No work out. Back to the gym tomorrow...
I'm amazed at how much money I've spent on cigarettes. I think any smoker would tell you the same, but for a long time it was something ancillary to my thoughts. We actually paid for my cigarettes as a budgeted part of our expenses. My wife thankfully runs a tight budget for us now. If we didn't have it we would truly be in a lot of trouble with our finances.
Over the past few months since I've started smoking again, however, I've been paying for them with my own money (part of my allowance). I certainly did not realize how much it would impact my ability to pay for things that I wanted (a soda at work, a new DVD, taking my wife on a date). As I've realized how much it's costing, I've come to understand this need as part of feeding the addiction.
I've done things - scrounged through my savings (a change jar which, for a time, was bereft of quarters thanks to my habit), spent money that was meant for other things - and I'm pleased to own this pledge - that I shall never do this again.
Well - again - a short post thanks to the BSOD. Have a great night. Talk to you all tomorrow.
Amendment - 7 cigarettes today. Not at all happy. But there it is.
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