Third Time's a Charm

Tonight is my third night to be blogging in a row. That's a personal best for the past month. YAY!

To report - I'm back to the gym, thanks to a newer, earlier bed time. Last night I got up (from the couch) and got into bed at 10:00 pm. And I almost immediately fell asleep. This is the first time in a while that this has happened like this, though I understand from some of my friends and my wife that this is considered "normal" human behavior. 2 days in 2 weeks. Though this is not good, it's a good start.

Current weight - 252 lbs. ugh.

Current belly size - protruding. Like a 7th month of a pregnancy big.

Did I gain weight thanks to quitting? I can't be sure that it was actually "cause and effect" - but I believe with my heart that the answer is YES. But I'm also happy to report that I'm starting (in 2 weeks) a running group at work with my wife and Forrest (he'll be joining us in a 'jogging' stroller. Or is it pronounced "yaw-ging"? I'm not sure... it might be a soft "J").

Number of cigarettes - still big 0. And thankful. While days like yesterday make me question myself sometimes (it's hard to convince myself 'smoking is bad for your health' when I'm MORE sickly since I quit); I've had a much better day today and generally have been feeling better all around. Could that be due to working out? :)

I continue to make progress in the world, slowly becoming a non-smoker. I wonder - will I ever get to claim to be a 'non-smoker'? Or, like an 'alcoholic', do I always have to say that I'm a smoker, just a 'recovering smoker'? Thoughts?

As I continue to strive for perfection, today reminded me that a bump in the road is NOT a failure. The difference between someone who succeeds and someone who fails really lies in the effort. If you TRY, you cannot fail. You may slip, you may stumble, but you will not fail. (I know this is counter to the whole "do, or do not, there is no try" mantra of the great Yoda, but seriously... that's kind of a crappy way to look at things).

So, on that positive note, I bid you farewell for another day. Tomorrow's a workout/busy-workday kind of day. But I look forward to talking to you again in the morrow!